Gassho, Susan
I read your post as if it came from a wise space inside of me -- which, I believe, in a way, it did. The struggle to 'release myself from the protection surrounding my heart' had never been put so plainly, simply, authentically to me before.
I am in a bit of tumult -- in order to be close to my children, I had to end a relationship that was replicating the worst of my former marriage. I learned one cannot set a boundary and protect or keep another human being from hurt and disappointment at the same time.
So, when reading your email, I was not in the park feeling the sun on my face ... I was back in the shadows in the familiar rut of self-blame.
The patterns are so old, so entrenched, and only me, 24-7, making the decision to value, love, honor, accept all of me can ever make me whole, unfettered, using only the armament of love.
I am in an in-between place, both geographically and spiritually ...
Thanks for the encouragement, the belief in me you have shown to be constant ... I move into that belief and claim it for myself this day. I am asking Spirit as you suggested for help with vocation and with a decision about where and how to be close to my children: I am sure the answer is forthcoming. I know that lots of the compassion and love I have for others comes from my journey, from knowing hurt inside my skin and *hearing* it from the hearts of others who entrust me with theirs. I think that will be part of what I do as I move into Spirit's task for me on this planet.
Great blessings on you for your constancy, your honesty, your not for a moment letting me settle on less than my highest self. Light, truth, love to you, Susan and all the lives you bless.
in the opening of my heart, unprotected, my gratefulness pours as I hugstheewarmly.
Love to you, dear, dear friend,
Beau
