Otoharo!
starjasmine, this refers to a long long stuggle to release ego and not allow any of the ego system to return. (Ego being what Firekeeper calls our Shadow). (Ego system being the way ego encompasses the whole world in it efforts to control human minds in order to stimulate fear and thus feed on that energy.)
I have shared in the past here on the cafe, how I lost immortality and am now regaining it. My Achilles heel so to speak, is that I can not use the intellect wihtout getting stuck in. Being stuck means that I can not get out of the intellect. While in that state, life is hum drum ho hum sort of nothingness. I choose to live, alive, and full of joy and wonder! Noone can live like that while in the intellect! My struggle has been very long and has taken all the resources I could find.
Yesterday, I found my answer. Mindfulness, as Firekeeper speaks of it. Being aware of all inner processes while they are occurring. Interveneing or interrupting them at will. By doing this, I discovered that talking is a completely different use of energy than mulling things over in the intellect. So I began to talk out loud about whatever I was doing and answering myself back. So I was in constant conversation, aloud. When so, I discovered input from the Holy into everything riaght at the momnent, not having to wait for a quiet time to meditate or pray about it. It was fantastic. I am now determined to stay in the energy of communicating aloud all day long. It is hard to maintain when I begin to tire becasue talking takes so much energy. This urges me to stop an activity before I tired myself out. That is also a benefit. espectially while working in the garden.
When I sit here alone, listening to the head chatter, I lose a lot! I do not do that any more. I keep up my own spirits. I am a good listener, so I turn my own skill to my own benefit!
finality
