As an energy worker do you think you are more vocal or temper what you say to family and friends when discussing any area that might touch upon who you are and what you do? I think what we say to other energy workers and clients is different than how we deal with others.
In the Celestine Vision he says we should speak our truth and be the spokepersons for the evolving of our earth now. I then wonder why we have such a hard time with those closest to us. I think they fear we will change so much they will lose the us they have know so well. I wonder why if they trusted our judgments before they do not seem to trust in us now. So do we persevere trying to spread the joy of who we now are and hope on some level they are still listening? You know, that staring off into space look they usually get on their faces and then change the subject. For the most part for a long time I gave up on enlightening most of my family.
Do you find you turn down certain invitations to events because they no longer serve you well? Is this speaking and living our truth or simply maintaining our own comfort zone? I am finding it more and more difficult to even go out shopping as I feel so drained when I return home. I think it was Dakota who wrote about standing in line and sensing all of the vibes coming off of the people around her. I always intend to walk in Reiki especially when I am out and with others and I honestly forget to put up protections for the most part. I am getting better at that since MedicineBear warned me of this and then I remembered what my second Reiki teacher told me about people being drawn to our light. They want it. I certainly hope that the day will come when everyone will shine brightly with their very own light and not want to take another’s but blend with the light of others to shine even brighter.
These thoughts came to me as I turned down a last minute change in plans invitation to my son’s birthday party this Saturday. Initially last week it was to be at their home and just the family. As of yesterday it is now being held in a party room at an apartment building with many friends to be there. I wrestled with everything in me about me not wanting to go there. So I am not sure if it is living my truth that won or my comfort zone that won but at any rate I am not going. Instead my son’s Aunt and I will go out to dinner and have a quiet evening together. I suggested we still have the family party at their home or ours at a later date as father is on an out of town fishing trip, and for them to enjoy themselves and not see this as a problem. I did not change the plans, they did and I am just not up for a huge party. (Maybe it’s my cold working on me too.)
I guess if I have to choose I would say I feel strong that I am living my truth as I have changed and this is who I am and how I navigate in the world now. Even more so since Reiki I have tried to negotiate a healthier balance with all of whom I relate with. In all honesty those who continue to live in negativity I have kept a distance from. I do hope this is wisdom on my part, living my truth and not something else like being judgmental.
Any thoughts or experiences?
Donna
