finality,
Hi.
Frankly, sometimes it sounds to me as if you are simply doing a virtual diary; not talking to any of us but just listening to yourself ideate aloud; trying to make sense of things for yourself (which is cool). But, it is difficult to feel included in such ideations and, frankly, sometimes I have no idea what you are on about. But, perhaps that is only my own short-comings.
Cheers,
RC