Hello All,
My name is Anil and Im a regular visitor to this site. More of silent visitor.Im writing this email to you hoping that you may have answers to my questions.
Heres the situation: I seem unable to get out of certain behavior patterns and no matter how hard I try, I seem to fail. Its like quick sand, the harder you try, the faster you sink. Reiki has helped a lot but there are those stretches of time when I fall back to the old patterns. Actually, reiki helped in the first place to actually realized that Im going round in circles. Now that I know Im going round in circles, I dont seem to know the best way to stop. After a lot of thought, I think these patterns started back in 1986 when we moved from a smaller town to a relatively big city. I still do not understand how just a change in place when I was ten years old could have such a deep impact on me. Im sure there are other reasons as well that are way beyond this lifetime.
So, in a round about way, I guess what I want to find out from you is,
a) have you dealt with someone who's had a problem like mine before?
b) What are the means that I can employ to get to a higher plane of existence. And more importantly, can I find out how this all started?
I sometimes feel really bad that Im underachieiving because Im stuck in this pattern. And the problem with being stuck in a pattern like this is that it creates more negative energy each time you fail to get out of it and that kind of attracts you towards it. So, now I have reached a stage where this has become a second nature to me.
So much so that even if I try to break out of it for a couple of days, which Im capable of, Im happy at first and later, I create situations that lead me back to my pattern of behavior. So, much so, it has become attractive to me at a sub conscious level.
So, given my situation, what do you suggest?
Many many thanks in advance,
Regards.
--Anil
