Hello all,
I've struggled with the present / future dilemma quite a bit, and still very much do. This little ditty really helped me:
God steers. You row. God'll let you steer, but God don't row.
All the footwork in my life, (you row), the going to the interview, dressing well, showing up on time, being polite, giving eye-contact - that's my part in the future. Generally, I haven't noticed people calling me to see if I want a job, or stopping me on the street. (God don't row).
I can do all the footwork to the best of my ability, and still not get the job (God steers). I cannot control the outcome, much as that pisses me off. I can affect the outcome by doing the footwork, but I can't control it.
I can decide, screw that, I need that kind of job, and continue looking and looking and deciding what outcome I want (God'll let you steer). If I am focused on what I think I need, I'm likely to miss opportunities that life might present me with. My experience is that trying to steer is usually very unproductive, and quite painful.
Staying in the moment is an incredible challenge for me. It requires trust. Trust that something bigger than me knows - better than I do- what is best for me. The whole time I'm in the past or future my rational mind (ego, maya, satan, disease, illusion, whatever) is trying to feel safe. To make sense of things. To anticipate what's going to happen. The opposite of trust.
For me, I need God. And I do mean NEED. Otherwise I'm crazy and trying to run the Universe. That has never brought me peace and happiness.
For today, I want peace and happiness. Tomorrow I'll probably want to run the planet again.
Nameste,
Joyce
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