Dear Judevine,
When I read your post these thoughts came to mind ( just thoughts & my reactions which I acknowledge probably say more about me than you :) Does your father support your involvement with Reiki? If not, Id wonder if that could possibly influence the temporary loss of the knife. You said that the knife is a symbol of the connection you have with your father, well, from what you have written it appears that strong connection exists with or without the knife at your side. As we advance in Reiki experience, we become aware of the connection, of the Reiki flow, with or without the symbols. In the beginning we need the symbols & with time, perhaps that need dissolves as our awareness of the flow increases. I would imagine that as you become more involved in Reiki, that the whole idea of symbols & connections, energy, etc is allowing you to see your life in new ways & be open to new connections & maybe even challenge how you think of symbols. My guess is that this is what is happening. The role of symbols in our lives is more powerful than we realize, IMHO.
peace & joy,
holobon
