Otoharo!
I am trying to recall how I did it. The thing for me was sorting out what flak I was getting from ego from what my true feelings and thoughts were. And are. Anytime I was flagilating myself, it was ego doing, not me. All woe is me was ego. All put downs was ego. etc.
When you sort through this, you truly begin to see what is you. really you.
finality