Nekomon, namaste,
Maybe I misunderstood what you wrote. I am sorry to learn that you feel ill, and also that you feel that everything is against you.
My comments related to your use of categories for people as "ordinary", "unordinary" and "normal". A certain amount of judgemental attitude has to be present, to place people in these "boxes". Calling people "losers" is not a pleasant term either.
I am truly sorry you found the whole experience of the Reiki share "unproductive". A Reiki share can be a wonderful experience, and it is sometimes a good idea to attend one with no pre-conceived notions of what to expect. Just to be grateful for the experience, and think hard about what you take away with you from that experience.
It is good to see that you are still posting on the Reiki Cafe, because the Reiki community that exists here, I find to be a loving and non-judgemental one. You will always be welcome here, to post how you feel, and to be part of the community.
Love and light,
philanty.
