You say
"I am really trying hard to dismiss this feeling as it makes me sad that I think it is him that I don't trust."
I've learned the hard way not to dismiss my feelings. Another most difficult lesson is learning to trust myself. The world has handed me some tough outcomes to demonstrate the importance of listening to that quiet inner voice. Still am learning to discern which is the fearful naysayer voice, and which is the true heart's wisdom speaking. Absolutes are hard to come by in this Universe.
No one of us can tell you what is your heart's wisdom. Watch and listen, maybe ask questions. Spend time just contemplating = "what do rats mean to me?".
Whatever happens, you will be wiser, because you'll be able to compare events to your intuition.
Blessings,
Aronaya
