I think I used those words as generalities, as the specifics were somewhat private. So I'll try a happy medium.
By "accelerating and clarifying", I was referring to getting clearer vision of what my work is, and making peace with feminine and masculine aspects within myself. The clearer vision gave more confidence, at the same time made me a little excited, hence the acceleration. Excitement is a two-edged sword; it's easy to come off balance and that is what happened in the days since I wrote this first post.
In the excitement, I let go of the meditative practice, and now find it a good idea to return to it.
I also find it good to be general about personal outcomes, because everyone will have a different subjective experience, and I'm reluctant to create specific expectations about subjective effects.
Hope that helps somewhat -- I'm happy to continue the conversation if you want to zero in on anything. Don't worry about asking for specifics or privacy -- I can always politely decline with no offense taken.
Blessings,
Aronaya
