My sympathies on the depression; have had a lifelong journey with it myself -- a great teacher. Let it teach you how to heal it. In my case Reiki was and is a powerful tool for self-help in lifting the dark cloud, along with counseling, diet, exercise, learning skills, and finding healing friends.
When I was depressed, I detested chronically cheerful people, and people who were enthusiastic about health and nutrition. Didn't want to hear anything about happiness. It was a tiny light way off in the distance, too far to hope for.
So I won't prescribe for you, just repeat -- let the depression teach you how to heal from it. That's the key focus, don't worry about jobs or how to talk about Reiki, just do what you need to do to take care of yourself, and let your feelings teach you healing.
And, always, get help if you feel the urge to harm yourself or others.
Blessings,
Aronaya
