Otoharo!
I, too, have had a major bout with depression. Years of crying, never knowing why. That time has gone now. the turning point for me was the discoverey that it was the ego that kept the depression going. When I learned how to be out of my head so ego had no way to reach me, then I could heal. and did. It helps to know that it really is not you that feels this way at all.
finality