Dear Aum,
I suspect that you are in a period of great progress. I think what you may find is that you become aware of yourself much more as a spirit, rather than a personality. The idea of the material world as illusion may see more the reality, than so called reality.
That's the experience I had after going through such a time. It may be different for everyone. Just hang on, something good will come of it.
Blessings,
Roxy
