Otoharo!
Have you yet learned to discern your ego as different from yourself? I have a hunch that it is your ego that is speaking. The ego is desperate because the earth has eliminated it. New souls being born have no ego.
Your real self is what you are looking for. Reiki is what helps us know ourselves. This is the journey home, home being yourself. While having your reiki hands on yourself, fell. Get this discernment.
In addition, we have all had to clear out all the stored emotions of the past. When the are all gone or are going, there seems to be an emptiness. Fill that with love for yourself.
I remember some of the things you discribe. The things we hear, see, are not the parts of us that are real, they are actual. The realness is in our true feelings.
finaltiy
