Hi there!
Welcome to the well populated "doubters club". There are so many doubters out there we can't get the door shut anymore. Though, not everyone comes for every meeting.
One good thing about the doubts, is if you ride them through they just disappear. But, they occasionally return to burst some little bubble you have gotten excited over. I wonder why that is. It's a TEST?
I did learn to ignore unimportant things that I have no control over after learning to let the doubts of reiki slip into oblivion.
Now I have a whole new challenge and the doubts return. In short, you are not alone. But, you are in the best place possible to get through them. Everyone here is wonderful at propping you up and keeping you going until you can do it yourself.
Just be yourself and enjoy Reiki by sharing it with others.
Birdy