Otoharo!
You are right in that I have been involved this whole lifetime in assisting others. I was very religious as a child and adolescent. I lead the singing at churches and during revival meetings. Then taught children during the week by permission from the principal to leave school for the hour it took. I married a preacher and was very active as the preacher's wife. I eventually divorced him, taught school or worked as an MSW Psychiatric Social Worker. I retired in 1992. Since then I have met reiki, and had clients and students until I retired. In all this, I went from the best I could find in myself. It is this last part that I have had to heal. The darkness in me from my nefarious past deeds. I described these today in another post.
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