Namaste all,
and ... whoops! I haven't been on to my computer for almost three weeks now and when I glance through the latest posts I see that a lot have happened during this big holiday season.
- I raise my glass in honour of Priestess Louise. May her journey onwards be a splendid one. Big loss for us who remain here on earth though.
- Seems like many of us become more tense than usual as Christmas comes close.
It makes me think. What is it with just Christmas that makes peoples' feelings so stirred up? Has anyone heard of the same stressed feelings and/or crises by Easter? Or Whitsun? Or whatever else holiday there is.
For myself I can say to this past holiday: good riddance. It's good that it's a full year till next time. This time was better than usual though. Still. All this planning and hard work with preparations, etc. You know. And all the people! I said to my daughter that I know what's wrong with Christmas. It's the people. Everyone shall be a big happy family and everone shall meet with everyone. All smiles and happiness.
In reality? "I can't have that person at my X-mas party. It would spoil the whole X-mas for me!" "I won't celebrate X-mas this year because I won't be seeing my kids, theyr'e with their mother this year, so I will not have any decorations and no gifts, thank you." "X-mas is useless since she's not with me this year."
Yes, I've heard all of the above within my family this year. As well as last year (with minor adjustments of people).
I made a big mistake. Without thinking I said ok to my father's (85 yrs old) question whether he could bring his woman friend (84 yrs) to my daughter's party on Christmas Eve. Shouldn't have done that. Hell broke loose (see the first example). Took days to console my daughter (34 yrs old), involving a lot of apologising and kneeling. Phew! It turned out the old lady-dragon didn't come after all. Made excuses and talked about a wounded knee or similar.
Why do we behave like this? Are we so sold to the idyllic PR picture of Christmas that we can't handle it when our own picture doesn't resemble it? Is there so much guilt around? Guilt for not being perfect while everyone else is.
Next Chistmas will be spent in a cabin i the far snowy north. With closest family member or without. I'm tired of family life during Christmas.
It's good to be back to the normal, struggling, honest life again!
Love and Light
Brit
