Why go on living? Perhaps a billion people ask themselves that every day. You are in good company.
Here's a reason: while you have a body, no matter how messed up you think it is, or how messed up your psyche may feel, _you can still change your life_.
Here's another: for whatever it's worth to you, I'm psychic enough to have encountered spirits from the afterlife, and these encounters have proved to me, that _consciousness and awareness live on_, after the transition of death. If you choose to not go on living, you will not obliterate the pain affecting your awareness -- you just won't have a body anymore with which to change or self-heal.
Here's yet another: everything passes. Even lousy painful despairing states of mind, and physical pain. The pain or emptiness is not you, nor your soul.
Please reach out to more people and find help, Esin. The drug isn't you, and the drug experience isn't you.
I hope to see you return here many, many more times. Email me if you want to talk some more.
love and blessings,
lunarreikin
