Hi Everyone,
I just want to say I know what it is like to be hurt in this way. Abuse is very hard to deal with. It steals our innocence and trust, joy. I would like to say though that trauma/abuse NEVER makes us a better person. Thats victim mentality.
I am who I am in spite of abuse/trauma/adversity, not because of it. To me it feels like your very angry, and you want to express it. Anger is not a bad thing. We should be angry when someone hurts us, they do not have that right. I know the betrayal, how much it can rob you of so many things in your life.
Sending buckets of love and light your way.