Hello whatever, *hugs**
what a great question.
My journey was quite a revelation to me as I had wishy washy faith. I had to go through alot to understand first that there was truly no judgement in any of the decsions I made for myself, even if it hurt another.
I tested the theory out alot and did alot of meditating and praying and connecting with Spirit to find my way home.
I also read some of Donald Neale Walsh's stuff and then experimented with the big guy myself to find out whether this "Spirit" we call God or any other name could really be trusted.
One of my favorites was asking directly if God ( my choice of name, all are good) really loved us all the same.
When I asked from my heart and truly wanted te answer, it came rather sweetly and about knocked me to my knees. :}
So, first you have to find a way to understand there is no judgment and there is no hell that you will go to for misbehaving. What kind of deity would that be anyway?
Free will and then you do it wrong and boom, off you go to the flame of everlasting whatever.
So, no judgement.. Test the theory..
The question is though, if there is no judgement and you feel you haven't lived up to whomever is out there judging all this time, then who is judging you?
Creator spoke with me at length about this subject and the finger pointed right back at me. It had been me who judged myself and me who had hurt myself with my worthiness.
So the challenge for me was to identify my judgements, place them where they belonged ( WITH ME!!) and then forgive myself for being so unkind to me and let it go.
Lots of crying and self forgivness..
Trust in Creators Goodness and Love for you. Trust there is some amazing Divine being and purpose out there that is guiding your steps ever so gently and always, always for the highest purpose of teaching you abou the true meaning of love.
Develop a relationship with whomever you call Great Spirit. Talk to It.. Laugh with It, Cry with It. Let it into your life, like a best friend you can tell anything.
I promise Spirit( our Mother/Father) will never let you down, nor abandon you in your time of need and greatest trial.
If you want some reading materials, please feel free to write me and I'll give you some wonderful reading materials that really helped me trust in the power of Love.
Bless you and good luck in whatever you want to choose..Remember when it comes down to you there are only two choices.. Love or Fear. :}
Jahnavi
