Namaste FK! Nice to see you again.
Balance...mmm...what's that? ;-) But yes, balance will eventually return. It always does. 'Tis simply the nature of the universe.
In Aug 2006 I had an emotional breakdown and was booked off work for a month. That was after a nightmare 4 months working for a new manager. We clashed horribly and I came off second best. I am still feeling the effects of her, even though she moved on in Aug. Am on antidepressants now and seeing various therapists.
My mother in South Africa passed away on 10th Dec, so I had to fly to SA at the last minute for her funeral and to sort out her affairs. Obviosuly that was a very emotional time, but also a good time for the family to connect again. It was also an opportunity for my family to meet my 'new' man (been seeing each other for 2 years now). Luckily that went well. Sorting out the logistics of my mom's stuff was not particulary fun though. It's still not complete, so we're having to do it long distance now. I ended up having to stay in SA for a full month.
I then had US visa issues and was refused a visa at the SA Embassy. Finally worked through that with my US attorney's and company.
Whilst in SA I was asked to dial into a conference call with my team in Delaware, only to be told that our department was being eliminated and that we'd all be out of jobs by Mid-April.
Because of the type of visa I am on (intercompany transfer) the situation is now complex, as without this specific job, I am not allowed to remain in the US legally. Except I own a house here and do not want to leave my new man.
So he wants to marry me. Which is not a bad idea, because I love him dearly, but I need and want to make sure that I am doing it for the right reasons. It's a bit premature for my liking :-) And then there is the small fact that neither of our divorces are through yet. So now we are both racing against the clock to get these processed. In the meantime, I'm attempting to learn about being a step-mom to his 2 kids (5 year old little girl and a 7 year old little boy). Talk about a crash course in parenting for someone whose never had any kids of her own!
I'm taking this opportunity of a career break to widen my work scope. Perhaps Acupuncture. Perhaps a Wholistic Health Centre (including Reiki, meditation etc). Perhaps a few small business course. Really cannot face coming back into this cut-throat corporate environment. I feel like the world's my oyster, even if I cannot clearly see the outcome.
Spiritually, it's been a though time too. Going through the breakdown and then the recovery, I have battled to feel any connection at all. It is better now. But still not what it used to be. I miss the peace and love I used to feel with Reiki and other spiritual practices.
(You know, I did not start out with the intention of telling you all this, nor writing a small book about it. But it is just poaring out now. Hope you don't mind ;-))
Anyway, as you can see, there has been alot to deal with in the last while. And it's not over yet.
Do still do your weekly (or monthly) sessions? Perhaps that would help me.
I noticed that the Cafe seems quieter. Is that correct?
Anyways, enough rambling. Thanks for the opportunity for the outpouring :-) Hope things are going well for you.
Namaste
~ Natalie ~
