I got a call today from one of the doctors. I knew that couldn't be good and I was right. You know that sick feeling you get? John hadn't called me this morning so I called him. He had laryngitis. I'm thinking that's "great", one more burden to get thru. However later I found out it wasn't laryngitis. He didn't have enough air in him to talk. The dr called to say that they had to put a breathing tube in, which means they also had to put him out for it and ventilate him. They also did an endoscopy (a look-see) to see what the hell was down there that was causing all this trouble. He has some filmy stuff on his bronchial tubes. They took samples so they can grow cultures. His lungs are still fairly clear but the germies are definitely in there causing havoc. He will be put on anti-biotics.
Because of all this, he was moved to ICU. Seeing him in there with the damn tube down his throat and a machine breathing for him was quite upsetting to me. He was awake but he obviously can not talk to me. He can only blink. It's heartbreaking. He knew who I was. He said yes that he was cold so I got the nurse to get him another blanket. I gave him hands-on Reiki. They have actual signs for it in the ICU. It was the first time I've seen them. I told the nurse to have a Reiki practitioner work on him tomorrow if they're free to do so. She said they would.
We have a new doctor on our team, now. He's the pulmonary doctor. He's the one calling the shots now.
I talked to him and asked him when would this tube be removed. He said it would depend but not to be surprised if it is in there up to Saturday. God help us all! He said John's lungs are in a very stressed state. He is in danger. He is not breathing on his own yet. That could happen tomorrow. It might not. He will be sedated tonight and he will have a central line put in his chest. I can not believe how fast this is happening compared to how well he seemed to be doing the other day.
I really hate being so helpless even with the Reiki. I know I have to surrender this to God. I just don't know what else to do.
Blini
