Dear all,
Here's a confession. I am in quite a depression. I am starting anti-depressants next week to help me, bu they don't start working for 3-4 weeks.
Its so strange, Reiki helped me out of a state like this years ago, but now I can hardly practice, and am starting to fill up with self-hatred, and emotion which had become alien to me.
This was all triggered by a romance ending with a man being nasty to me.
Maybe this is just a learning process, to let me empathise with those who go through similar things and not to think myself 'beyond all that' with Reiki. I have certainly believed that in the past.
I am in the last 3 days of my degree and can hardly concentrate. I become disacosiated and can't feel myself (i.e hunger, fullness, pain).
I am also afraid I will feel worse afterwards because I will have no focus.
I thank all of you who sent me Reiki and gave advice on depression before.
I would appreciate some to help me through the next few weeks, and keep me alive and physically safe.
Funnily enough Reiki is still flowing through me lke wildfire when I pass hospitals or the sick, just not in self practice. Any suggestions as to why?
Thankyou all
Shanta
