The one thing that I expected when I began my Reiki practice was enlightenment, that I would be an effortlessly graceful and
perfected being...I have learned otherwise. I am still here, I am still me, I still sometimes get confused, I still get lost, I still get mad at people and yell at them.
I no longer live in anger, pain and hate, in a hell that I believed that I had no way out of.
Reiki landed me here, in Wilmington, with an awesome guy who just would not leave my side even though I took out my issues and baggage on him. My job is not demanding and although a massive paycut from what I was doing before I moved, meets my needs. It is banquet work at a hotel. With a degree and professional exper. and a lot of job hunting this seems to be it.
But something is missing, and the thought of joining the Air Force or Navy to become a doctor or going to nursing school has been playing over and over in my mind.
Basically I feel like I'm floating along without a clue of what I need to be doing. It could be that I am intrinsically restless/nned to constantly acheive or that maybe it's time to mark a new course.
basically I feel lost, and if anyone could send some energy
to this particular situation, it would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks to the Light Lovin Leauge!
Kara
