Hi all, hmm, lots of questions to answer.
what does 3 signify to me? 3 is the number for man, 4 the number for god, 7 the number to represent god and man as one. I think.
Scotland? never been there. when now I think of scotland I think of empty glens in the highlands. lonely aloof, solitude peace,, quiet. I read a book by a half scot half irishman born in america somewhere. He's a shaman and his stories and stuff in the book intrigued me. I felt a need to contact him sometime back, but don't really know how. or should.
crystals, yellow quartz, not citrine, but a yellowish quartz crystal. can't remember the number or other styles of crystal in the rock but I think one was red, ruby i think.
skulls? I get the feeling now that It wasn't evil but a sense of evil was around then went away, maybe It could be used for evil? I rescued it, and it seems my doppelganger must have beendoing somewhat similar, but maybe would have failed cause there really wasn't much of a fight. weird.
The 3 people over the map, and me probably makes 4, One was a woman with long blonde hair. the map was upside down facing away from me.
A part of me thinks I should go to my cousins wedding in cisco, but fear holds me back. whether I go or not is not the issue, the fear is.
I sometimes feel disjointed. You've read my posts. positive one minute, negative the next, lashing out in imagined hurt or anger, apoligetic the next. my flatmate has a girlfriend and he brings her home up to his room and I don't see them. I have this gut feeling that somethings wrong and I contributed, I want to get out. but this means that I'm running away again. I don't understand why I feel this way.I'm no feeling sad or angry at the moment just slightly confused/frustrated. Maybe my dream is nudging me to start walking a shamanic path, not to fear because I'll get help, a change of scenery would be nice.
Thanks to y'all I'm feeling a mite mor steady.
Be cool!