Otoharo!
Today, I can say that I am finally out of setback. Boy have i learned from this melodrama.
How to work puzzles and not get stuck in ego, nor bring in addiction. Mindfulness. How simple now as I look back. I carefully notcied what happened in my energy field when I worked the anagram puzzle. By practicing, I could do this mindfully. This was successful! Freedom 1.
How to get unstuck. First choosing to be unstuck. Followed with slipping into meditation. Couldn't get there! Counting my breaths until I was into my meditative space. Mindfulness, again. This was successful! Freedom 2.
Why did I need permission to play this music? As I became unstuck, out of my head, out of ego, I could again hear consmic communications. From this I discovered that if I was allowed to play music that comes to me as a means the cosmos has of bringing in some of itself into the physical, and I am playing it while in ego, stuck in my head, that vibrations of the Cosmos can not come through. Therefore, the reason i did not have permission, is that I could not do it in the first place, and attempting to would contaminate what people heard. It possibly could put them into their heads and their egos. It would result in harm to me and to them. So I will always ask first just to be on the safe side. I have now received permission to play it! Freedom 3.
AS for opening up to social interactions, that will always depend on whether I am stuck or not on the one hand, and on the other hand, how vulnerable I would be to the ego machinations of other people. As much as I love my friends, their egos are quite prominant. If I have the least bit of ego stuff still in me, ego will zero in on me in that one tiny area and I have opened to ego contamination that is very difficult to handle. I would be unable to remove the contamination until I had cleared out the little bit that was still in me. (I hope you can follow this) This I will take slowly and continue to be mindful. Not yet free.
If I left anything out, I will respond further with a post.
I am celebrating all this newfound freedom! I am thankful to Firkeeper whose posts have kept mindfulness uppermost in my mind for this past year.
finality
