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This is an odd kind of poem (for me anyway) :-)
Note the lack of flowery imagery.
Probably more of a letter or plea really.

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Let me Fly

You who needs to know everything that's going on with me, within me
Needs to know my every word, thought and action
Do not clutch me to you, let me fly

You want to posses
Not because you love me, but because you're terrified of loosing me
You battle with my healing, you are not in control
You think, if you know everything about me, you control the outcome
I understand this

IT WILL NOT WORK
You cannot force me to be with you
You can only change yourself, never anyone else
You are driving me further away
Do you not want me to be with you out of my own free will?

There is only one thing you can really do
Concentrate on your own healing
You have come so far, don't stop or go backwards now
Do not resort to fear based behaviour and feelings now
Go back to your exploration and healing

Forget about 'Us' for a while
Let us heal separately
Maybe we will connect again - maybe not

All I know is
We cannot reconnect
With both of us unhealed and desperate

Nats Dear,

Spirit is lifting you up...
Your already flying...
And riding wolves!!!

The Spirit of the Flame will be healed
by The Magic Man...
Keep your vision skyward...
In a flash the Magic Man will do his Magic..

Your already flying ...now it is time to soar...
Soar high beyond the realms of the conscious...
Soar to the new hights that are yours...
Find what is been there waiting for you...
Find You...

Find out who the Spirit of the Flame really is...
Find you...

Find You...

Bear Smiles

Hey JoeBear,

This is lovely!
Are you an emerging poet ;-)
Now I'll have to write something about Spirit of the Flame and Magic Man - LOL.

Thanks for the belief in me and all your help.

Blessings
Nat

Nats,

This is wonderful, thank you!
I find it to be particularly interesting you wrote about this as I relate to it, being something very close to an experience I've had recently.

It just reinforces my belief that the souls we are around and drawn to are a reflection of our own experiences, feelings and thoughts.

Who is ever completely healed though. I have been working on my healing so very hard for so many years, trying to prepare myself for a healthier relationship. When am I ever to be ready? I don't think there is a THERE, we only have here and now. I could live in a vaccum all by myself in this cozy little apartment I have and be quite satisfied probably, no partner challenging me to grow. I realize that I do not want to grow old alone like my mother. I am meant to be partnered I think. I guess the question is - Do I want to be a monk? or Do I want to be a mate? LOL

Taking space is very important in relationships as it does give you time to re-evaluate where your at, what you need to do for your healing. There was a time when I stopped believing in human love, but my healing work has helped me to get back a glimmer of hope. Reiki works miracles when put to the task!

Thanks again.
Love & light
Whitelace

Hi Whitelace,

Thanks for the very kind words!
I am finding it very therapeutic to write and these poems are just bubbling out of me right now.

I do not believe we are ever completely healed.
A good friend talks about the onion layers. Very good analogy I think.

Yes, we have people around us who are mirrors.
Trouble is, the person referred to in this poem is a mirror of who and what I was many years ago.
We stagnated together in fear for years.
But Spirit wouldn't allow that for me any longer, so I started growing, struggling within the restrictive relationship. This poem is the result.
I am seeing mirrors now who more closely mirror where I'm at and where I'm going.
Hard to let go though - so much history.
Also, tired of dragging him along on my journey - shouldn't need to drag anyone.
I have an image of DEADWOOD in my head that is trying to come out - maybe the next poem.

Whitelace - BELIEVE in love! It makes the world go round. That is all there really is. The rest is illusion.
Corny and romantic, I know.
But I feel it to be my truth.

Blessings
Natalie

Hiya Nats,
I sent you an email, was wondering if you got it...
cheers,
Wendy