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I didn't want to hijack Dakota's post, but I am turning to my friends here with a similar situation.

I've been doing distance sending for 2 1/2 years and no one has ever had anything but a positive experience, or no awareness at all while I send.

My sister called tonight and told me of an experience she had last night that scared her and I didn't remember till several minutes into the conversation that I had sent her Reiki last night. I've been sending over the past week, with her permission, due to chest/stomach/flank pain that she has that has not been diagnosed yet. (She goes for a CT scan on Wed.) X-rays ruled out pneumonia/pleurisy and similar things.

What she described was this: She was relaxed and in a dreamy state, but awake and aware of her surroundings (t.v., etc.) She started to see a lovely kaleidescope of changing colors and she was enjoying it in a blissful state-wondering if she was in heaven or what-and not aware that I was sending Reiki at that specific moment- and suddenly the colors turned unpleasant. It turned and ugly red and then muddy and very dark. At the same time she started to hear a loud buzzing, like a hornet, and actually felt air moving in front of her. She could not open her eyes and, in her perception, she could not move. She was frightened and thought, "Oh God, please help me!" She immediately was able to open her eyes and all of these perceptions were gone.

My sister is a very negative, fearful person, but very loving and full of life and happiest around people. She has fibromyalgia and her biggest fear of her life is cancer. She is afraid they are going to diagnose her with cancer every time she has new pain. This has been a fear for her since she was very young (she's now 47.) Her best friend just had a cancer removed, along with her uterus and ovaries (lymph nodes clear though!)

I conjectured that the negative, fearful energy that surrounds her a good deal of the time was suddenly perceived by her brain as this muddy, dark and buzzing thing. Under normal conditions she does not "see" this energy as a "thing." Perhaps the vibrations of Reiki enabled her to release this and send it away (for the time being anyway.) She told whatever it was that she is a child of God and to go away.

I am trying to find a way to make this a positive, learning experience for her and not something to be fearful of all over again. I tend NOT to believe in "demons", though that is what she was calling it until I mentioned the Reiki being sent at that time. Her question was "why me?"

I have offered to send to her again tonight, with strong intent that she be protected from any negative beings, thought forms or even "perceptions" that are not for her highest good. I always begin my Reiki with the intent that the energy be for the client's highest good, and have faith that it will, but there is so much about this universe that I do not know. I told her that if she has this sort of experience again, I would not be offended if she chose not to receive Reiki (though I would be saddened, I could certainly not blame her for not wanting a repeat.) I am happy that she said she'd try again. She loves me and trusts that what I am sending is pure, but she understandably would not want this to happen again.

My dear friends, so many of you here have more experience that I do, and I welcome your thoughts. I am a Reiki Master, but my own experience with the dark side is so small and I want only to send loving energy to my sister. She is so willing to accept it. My own thoughts are in a muddle at this time.

Also....I remember some time in the past that there were some posts about the feeling of being held down and not being able to move. I seem to recall that was a rather scientific explanation for this and some suggestions for what to do. If someone can refresh my memory or refer me to the old thread number, that would be great.

Thanks in advance.

Namaste,
Lionheart

The more I have thought about this (and allowed Spirit to seep into my heart) I realize this was MOST LIKELY a release of some of her fear and self-hate. It is just that usually she cannot sense this when it happens during Reiki.

If this had happened during a hands-on session, I would have known what was happening. Hearing about it as an isolated incident, and THEN realizing it was part of the Reiki experience, knocked me off balance briefly. I plan to explain this to her and let her see it as a positive thing. She has sort of "vomited" a lot of negative stuff that she was able to see. Perhaps I can encourage her to use it as a deeper learning. Now that shes how ugly this stuff is in comparison to the loving vibration (the beautiful colors) that is her own real energy, maybe when she is feeling negative, fearful and self loathing, she can tell it the same thing she told this buzzing thing. I am a child of Light and Love and this part of me that hurts me can go away and be absorbed by the Light of the Universe. Something along those lines.

However, if anyone here gets a strong sensing that this was truly something ELSE, I am open to hearing that. (Not likely to tell it to sis, though.)

See how my OWN fear blocked my inner knowing of Truth? I know better...but I forgive myself <smile>.

Namaste,
Lionheart

lionheart,

/*\ Namaste :-}}

- just to be clear on this sort of thing, it is always trickier when one is not hearing it from the person who had the experience

- having said that, from what you say about her being a fearful and 'negative' person (pessemistic outlook??) my first inclination is to say that she was experienceing some of her own anxieties - or fears of cancer?

- you also say she has pain - well, pain usually is symptomatic of something unpleasant - thoughts and feelings associated with such unpleasantness (and energy) can manifest under the right conditions

- fibromyalgia can also have erratic flare-ups and there can be some unpleasant energies associated with auto-immune disorders - largely sef-generated stuff even though often "unconsciously generated" - but when the body attacks itself there is usually more going on than meets the eye

- too, since she did not know you were sending at the time these experiences manifested there could be some interaction there as well

- I would say that if you have done reiki in the past on a regular basis with her and this has been the only 'strange' report from her then have a go again and see

- with her permission, of course - and perhaps some clue as to the timing of your reiki work

- as for feeling held down? remember, that if one feels "trapped" by a disease or the fears associated with being "ill" then "trapped" could be a form of being held down

- hope this helps

Reiki All Around,

All Blessings,

Firekeeper

Hi Lionheart,

I had something very similar happen to me a couple of years back. The loud buzzing, the inability to move and a real sense of foreboding and panic. I did a fair amount of research and there is a condition called sleep paralysis which gives exactly these symptoms(it often happens just as you are drifting into sleep). If you search 'sleep paralysis' on the web, it will give you more detailed information and 'symptoms'. I was very relieved to find out that there was a more scientific explanation to the experience at the time :)

Gentle Blessings
Helen

Dearest Lionheart,
I'll share my postings any time :)

My first instinct when reading your post was exactly as Helen has said. Perhaps your sister was so relaxed that she lapsed into that place between sleep and awake. This used to happen to me all the time (much to my dismay!) when I was a kid. I could not scream, move, I would see colors and be terrified. Perhaps her "Oh, God help me" is a nice key phrase for her when something like this happens that helps to "wake" her. I did not feel anything bad or evil about her experience. Unfortunately I do have too much experience with such things.

Tracey

Thanks for the varying views and offered opinions. I will offer up all of it to my sis and let her see what she feels about the experience. I did look up sleep paralysis and printed out some good info for her (she does not currently have internet service.) She can decide for herself if this is some totally physical "brain" experience or something else. She had a similar experience once before, but that time she felt that there were wonderful, loving guides in the room (one of them holding her hand warmly and telling her to keep her eyes shut and sleep...the other sounded like my mother, though she did not "see" either of them) and she did slip into sleep for an hour or so.

I have not spoken to her since I sent Reiki again last night. This time we agreed upon a time, so she knew exactly when I was sending! I'll check with her and see how that went. Will get back to you all.

Namaste,
Lionheart

I just spoke with my sister and she said after her Reiki session last night she went to bed totally fearful and had a crying jag. The crying I would chalk up to Reiki release, but I don't like the increased fear. Despite all my assurances, and those of her male partner, she was afraid to go to sleep because something satanic might come for her. Sheesh.

So I told her about what I'd found about sleep paralysis, how common it is and all the things that can occur and why and she felt sooooo much better. To know that there COULD be a totally "scientific" reason for these sensations and that many other people have experienced the same things, went a long way towards alleviating her fears. I told her I'd bring her what I printed out when I see her Saturday.

Thank you, my friends.

Namaste,
Lionheart

Namaste Lionheart,

Hopefully it is sleep paralysis and her fears will be completely allayed when she reads the info. It is extremely scary the first time it happens.

It has happened to me since, but I am able now to 'relax' into it rather than panicking and fighting it.

Anyway I hope she is okay.

Gentle Blessings
Helen

I was watching a show on alien abductions and one of the scientists suggested that sleep paralysis could induce some of the feelings and experiences that the abductees described.

Just a thought,
DesertWolf

Hi desertwolf,

yes I would say that is a distinct possibility :)

Gentle Blessings
Helen

Otoharo!

Lionheart, my first impression when reading this post, is that we all are without volition for movement when we are out of the body. So paralysis per se is just that we can not move anything unless we are in the body. When one takes away that particular concern, then one sees evidence of ego machinations with a person. When she can desern herself as different from all this, she can heal. She need not own any of the dread material. Or else she can say, this too is me, and I choose different and then choose different. When one can do this without judgment, it works. Judging self is deadly. free will choice is a given.

As for, outside influences, they can have a ball when we wallow in self judgment. They can not remain when we love ourselves and do not judge. Reiki assists in all these processes to help us choose realness over the yuk.

finality