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i have just recently done my reiki masters and i am feeling very inside out and bad .. i no that reiki can cause changes in life but i have talked to others ((reiki 1,2s and 3s) who feel it 2.
its like i dont want to do anything anymore .. that life is worhtless and theres nothing here 4 me and that all i want to do is go 'home' .
also feelings of wanting to go sit in a church ..
has anyone else felt this or am i going mad???

kev

Otoharo!

Reiki has opened you up to earth's energy which is speeding up vastly. Wanting to go home, is wanting to be yourself, wholely. It helps to lie on the earth. If you have a sfe place to do this, spend time out in nature as much as you can. It is all natural!

finality

thank you i will try that i was feeling a pull togo outside .. i will report back after i have done so ty

Hi Kevin

I recently did my Usui Masters and then Karuna I, after Karuna I, I was depressed for two weeks and a little confused, but it does go away, and it is part of the clearing process. Just practice releasing or surrendering.
Your life is different now and maybe your ego doesnt want the change...I know mine didnt!

Blessings, stargazer7/Kim

thanks for you message .. i apprechaiate it

Kevin,

/*\ Namaste :-}}

- do you have any history of such feelings before your Reiki training?

Reiki All Around,

All Blessings,

Firekeeper

yes when i was young i was not happy .. i had to leave home early at 15 to go to college and couldnt do it ..
i had a good childhood .. i cant complain about it .. i suppose lonyness was the feeling ... i felt lost .. but discovered i could talk to spirit people about 3 years ago about the same time i discovered reiki ...

Hi Kev... :)
I do not practice Reiki (although I'd love to learn) but I am a very spiritual individual. I have felt exactly how you describe for quite a few months now. I wish I could just find some mountains somewhere and go hide up there till it's time for me to go home. I feel completely displaced here, which are thoughts I struggle with every day - it's very strange & uncomfortable. It's like I don't belong here... but am stuck here right now.
I always enjoy what Finality has to say about things - and after reading her thoughts, I think I'll go find myself a nice, quiet place and go "bond" with nature...although I do DO that as often as possible, but I don't allow myself to remain "grounded" after meditating, which then brings all the negativity of the world back in.
I feel ya and certainly understand your confusion... you're not alone, many of us share the same feelings...

KEEP SMILING ;)
~~~~ Peace ~~~~
Joanne

thank you .. yes time with nature is called for i think

Kevin,

/*\ Namaste :-}}

- some would say that your recent attunement may have jolted some of the old issues out of the "dark" and into the "new light"

- perhaps they need to be dealt with in new ways??

- I think most of us have some needs "to be needed"

- but, bottomline, who do we really need to be there for us more than ourselves?

- hope this helps

Reiki All Around,

All Blessings,

Firekeeper

Namaste Kevin,

When I feel like this, the only thing that helps me is when I am out doing something to help others. Reiki does help you get to a level where the mundane does not make sense, feelings of detachment are good in a way in that we are able to rise about pettiness in everyday life and take things evenly.

Mal

Hey Kevin,
Yesssssss, I know what your talking about!!
About a week after my masters I felt very out of sorts. As if nothing fit anymore. I grieved deeply the life I'd led. It seemed to me as if I"d wasted my time.
In truth, there was no waste of time. I had to suffer the way I did because of the levels I teach others. I know now that my suffering was not in vain. Obviously I was pushing through some serious trauma and karma to move into a higher awareness.
This shall pass I promise. Just keep on reiki'ng yourself and believe in your higher power to get you through this. YOu are not alone. Your guides and angels and your highest Source of Love are all at your side and on your side at this most difficult of times.
You will come out on the other side stronger, trust in this process now. Letting go is what is most difficult and what is being asked of you now. Do not look back and condemn the you that was. Do not harm the gentle spirit within by asking to be anywhere except for where it is now.
Honour your tears. Honour your need for space and quiet and solitude.
Take some nice long walks and be with yourself and get grounded. Remember nature is your best friend at this time and it will really heal you if you allow it.
Remember to receive the blessings of Mother Earth. Allow her to nuture you as her energy flows up through her body and into yours.

Bright blessings my brother and know my heart is with you.

Jahnavi

Funny, how the wheel turns? Even after having my Reiki Masters, I didn't feel very bad, a few issues did come up, but nothing as to what you described. About a week before the sweat, I had a Golden Dragon3 attunement This att. Has to do with the earth somehow, I think of grounding of self, or something. My clearing for that wasnb't bad, but might have contributed. Then when I went and did the sweat lodge,after for about three weeks or so, Boy, did I feel it., Sad, low, very low energy feeling. Goint a natural spot seems like the right thing to do. I didn't appreciate that till just now after reading your post. Even though I knew it in my head. Just now It just clicked for me. Thank you.
Nameste