The Reiki Cafe 

At work today, I started talking of reiki, and what it meant to me, the conversation just steered itself that way.
My friend was talking of a neighbour who 'found God' and began to go around to hospitals and such to give 'healings'. He said of the other fella that he'd ask for donations but that the 'client' didn't have to give one.
He was profoundly sceptical of said person.
So I began to pontificate.
On empowerment of the client, hense the donation,
The story of usui and the beggars and the start of payment.
I feel like such a d**k.
The one thing I don't want to be is a preacher of reiki.
'cause I don't want to be pendantic, and that I think is the main feeling I must have put across.
I'm 'afraid' that they'll think I'm some kind of nut.
So what do I do?
To answer my own question, lay low, not open the conversation with the same subject.
Maybe it's a start.

part 2

I want to quit my job.
The smart thing to do would be to have something lined up.
but not a day goes by that I have a flash of sadness run through me like lighting.
It doesn't take much to set off my depression., It doesn't last long, but still sets the day and how I interact and react.
I guess that I'm afraid to start from scratch somewhere else.
You know that feeling of bloatedness you get when you eat to much bread, and are all logged up.
Thats what I'm feeling at the moment. Doesn't help that I've eaten to-much bread today. :o)

p.s. the inverted commas are there for a reason. Their my way of saying sarcasm to said word in said commas.

cheers

My sympathies on the depression; have had a lifelong journey with it myself -- a great teacher. Let it teach you how to heal it. In my case Reiki was and is a powerful tool for self-help in lifting the dark cloud, along with counseling, diet, exercise, learning skills, and finding healing friends.

When I was depressed, I detested chronically cheerful people, and people who were enthusiastic about health and nutrition. Didn't want to hear anything about happiness. It was a tiny light way off in the distance, too far to hope for.

So I won't prescribe for you, just repeat -- let the depression teach you how to heal from it. That's the key focus, don't worry about jobs or how to talk about Reiki, just do what you need to do to take care of yourself, and let your feelings teach you healing.

And, always, get help if you feel the urge to harm yourself or others.

Blessings,
Aronaya

Otoharo!

I, too, have had a major bout with depression. Years of crying, never knowing why. That time has gone now. the turning point for me was the discoverey that it was the ego that kept the depression going. When I learned how to be out of my head so ego had no way to reach me, then I could heal. and did. It helps to know that it really is not you that feels this way at all.

finality

That's exactly it, finality -- the lifting of my dark cloud really accelerated as I learned strong ways of getting out of my head and into my body. Still learning! (Hint: the Earth helped me a lot.)

Blessings,
Aronaya

well an update on my development is overdue, methinks.
I stopped eating cr*p, i mean junk, pardon the expletitive.
At work I relised what was happening and decided to change it, I began to make an effort to talk to people. My people the people I work with.
I stopped eating the greasy food, and cut out choclate, I used to eat nearly two bars a day, somedays, three.
Last week I only had one cup of coffee. Exept when I'm out I might have a mocha.
Herbal teas, mixed fruit and cereal for breakfast, not as much junk food, I'm trying to stay away from fast food.
My mood has much improved.
I still get the jitters, but now I counteract it by reading a lot.
Play my drum, try to keep busy, last week I went to a Zen dojo and did some meditation. One time.
Gonna try again next week.
I went to mass, since I'm a catholic and found it peaceful.
I still have a good few bad habits, but I'm learning.
Thanks for your good wishes.
Nameste.

Hi Jaguar,

Really pleased to read your update. Feeling "down" when it keeps on going for a long time becomes almost self-perpetuating - you start feeling down about having been down!

Loved that you've begun talking to/with the people at work. I really hope that's helped. Sometimes not talking comes about through feeling down, but then you can end up feeling isolated and that adds to the depression.

Here's a little physiology that might help... Our adrenals are involved in the hormone production that lifts mood naturally. Our adrenals need plenty of vitamin c to do their job well. Hopefully all that fruit is helping in a way you didn't even foresee! (and of course, reiki reiki reiki).

All best wishes,

Suzibeth

Dear Suzibeth,

Vitamin C? I never knew that, what a great tip. Thank you.

Blessings,
Roxy

May I ask more about your Zen dojo visit? Were you comfortable? Was it a "first" for you? I've been to many dojos, but never a Zen dojo....would love to hear the details...if you don't mind.