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My Reiki teacher has moved away, she was great but I began to feel a lot of anger and resentment towards her, This confused me cause she doesn't deserve my ire.
I've since recognised that it wasn't her I was mad at, It was myself. Big breath.

Maybe cause I feel that I took on to much stuff instead of focusing on reiki on it's own and then trying out the other stuff. She encouraged, I went along. It felt like a good idea at the time.

Now though, I've taken a step back from the other stuff for now, and am begining to get a feel for reiki that surprises and delights me.

In another post, I mentioned that I'm going to a shiatsu therepist who also has most of the attunement that I have.

I've been thinking of asking him for help in doing reiki work. Since I feel a stuning rapport with him, I feel like I'm beggining to trust him, unlike how I felt with my teacher.

I feel like I can talk to him of my worries and fears and even though I don't have to, the freedom that I feel that I can is somewhat heady.

I feel that at this moment, I don't feel this way with my teacher.

For although she is a most wonderful person, and I'm beggining to feel a most grateful feeling towards her for her teaching, Am I being untrue to her and her teaching by taking another path in reiki, not going by her teaching?

How would you feel if a student turned their back (more or less) on your teaching by going to another for different instruction?

Or am I just making another molehill...

jaguar,

Hi,

Sounds very much like a Jaguar hill. Ask yourself this: how would you feel, yourself, if one of your students took a somewhat different path than yours?

Cheers,

RC

Hi Jaguar,

It seems to me that her teaching was right for you at the time and you are grateful for that. She laid the foundation stones, but now you have grown spiritually and need something a little different to build upon. That seems like a natural progression to me. Personally I would be glad that a student had developed and grown in confidence enough to 'fly the nest' so to speak :) Trust your instincts.

Gentle Blessings
Helen

Very good words, Helen. My husband's always said, "The true teacher gives his/her's students what they need to go beyond the teacher."

reikicurmudgen: cynical much?
Apptly named of course. :0)

What I'd feel is irrelevent really, I mean at the state of progress I'm at I'd probably feel betrayed, which is probably just a bit silly.

The state of my Teacher is more advanced, and I think now she would be okay about the whole thing, but this isn't about others, it's about me, Mustn't be selfish though,
thanks rc, My path now is clear, I'll probably get in touch with her and take it from there.

Progress! who'd think...

Helen and pondering

I think I've met my new teacher, not in a formal way, but as a friend, who just 'happened' to appear, when I needed him to.

Cheers all!

growing pains are often just that....your caring touched my heart, my friend

Pondering

How so? Hope you feel better for it.

I'd read that of someones whose book I'd read, wife taught one who after the teaching got very angry with her and cut of all contact.

This seemed similar to my own case but not quite.

The teacher in the book was sad but accepted this and could cope.
It gave me hope.

jaguar,

Hi.

I am not certain how asking you how you would feel if you were the Teacher in the case to which you refer raises the issue of cynicism in my personality. But as you say, this is not about others (me in this case), is it?? And suggesting that I am cynical, if that is what you were doing, suggests, to me at least, a bit of projection on your part.

You might read the 'proper' definition of a Curmudgeon which Helen posted here last year, I believe (or just ask her to send it too you). Even I appreciated it. lol

:)

Cheers,

RC

"The state of my Teacher is more advanced, and I think now she would be okay about the whole thing, but this isn't about others, it's about me, Mustn't be selfish though,
thanks rc, My path now is clear, I'll probably get in touch with her and take it from there.

Progress! who'd think..." your words felt like they weren't easy ones to find....that you went deep within yourself to find them....to have understanding. To change your perception and to move forward....powerful stuff, I think.

rc

I hate to be criticised, not meaning that your criticising or wot, If I called you cynical, I think maybe that finding fault in others is just a reflection of the fault in oneself, and not exacly a fault in the other. Projection, good word.
I wonder if there is such a term as counter-projection?

Yes I am self-critical and self-protective.

I realise that.

All name calling aside, This soul searching stuff is tough.

Being aware of cynisisim in others doesn't necessarily mean that they are, but if I look at the statement above differently, means that I am the one being a cynic.

Something to ponder.

The phrase 'look before you leap' springs to mind, but instead of the above phrase, I'm going to amend it to 'think before you speak(type)' and apply it to my own self.

I appreciate your candour, and wish you well.

Nameste

I would be happy for you and tell you what avatar, Sri Bhagavan, once told me: "Be a spiritual business person (in matters of studying with other teachers or other traditions). If it gives you energy take it. If you lose energy leave it."

Since then it has been as simple as that. That advise changed my life.

Satya

Good advise.

my thanks

satyloka,

/*\ Namaste :-}}

- you quoted, in part: If it gives you energy take it. If you lose energy leave it."

- we must take responsibility for some instances where we 'lose' energy

- it simply does not do to just blame someone\something else

- developing the insight to tell the differences is key as it may allow us to persist in situations we could have mis-perceived

>:-}}

Reiki All Around,

All Blessings,

Firekeeper

Firekeeper

Food for thought that.

I've just recently read the four agreements by ruiz.

Your comment on taking responsibility reminded me on what he wrote in the book, can't think what now though.

Happy trails

jaguar,

/*\ Namaste :-}}

- it is owning our thoughts, feelings, and actions that defines our rsponsibility - and will affect the Karma we accrue and Resolve

- we have been 'responsible' long before writing was invented

>:-}}

- some would say that with the "birth of Intention" came the birth of Karma

>:-}}

Reiki All Around,

All Blessings,

Firekeeper

So by intending reiki or anything, even the negative stuff, I'm responsible?
Pretty heady stuff that.
That gives me a strong sense of confidence in myself for some reason.

Cheers!

Otoharo!

About a month late, but this is my response to your origianl question. I have been a teacher all my life in one area and another. I never expected loyalty from any student. that is not a part of teaching. And in reiki, the receiver is the one who chooses who to receive reiki from. No loyalty involved at all. Be free of this sticky business. Just be yourself as yourself only.

finaltiy