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I took a mood altering drug two days ago (I don't do drugs normally - this was exceptional) and something extreme happened to me.

I have a very strange request to make.

Please tell me some reasons to go on living.

Esin

Esin,

/*\ Namaste :-}}

- I do not know why you took whatever drug you did, but..

- I can only share some reasons I go on living rather than considering the alternative - taking an "early out"

- there are people still in This World I wish to have more time to love.

>:-}}

Reiki all around,

all blessings,

Firekeeper

Dear Esin,

For me, I still have a very firm idea I have things to accomplish while I'm alive...I'm sure if you reach into yourself, you'll realize you do, too.

Roxy

Esin,

Another thing comes to mind...what about those people who love and care for you....what would it do to them if you were to leave them abruptly?

Blessings,
Roxy

Otoharo!
Esin,

Lazaris, St. Germaine, and Xaris all tell us that whatever comes from drugs causes damage to the system. Even those who have had fantastic glorious experiences, have the double job of undoing all that on top of their original job of fulfilling their life plan. That is true whether you are here or in the after life. May as well stick it out here! And my menories tell me the same. Also people who communicate back from the after life say the same thing.
And, you are enjoyed intensely here!
finality

Esin, every day I find something absolutely fascinating and complexing about life. Something new that I feel the need to learn or understand. And every day I am reminded that there are others who need me to help them learn and look at these complexities.

Surely you didn't find all the answers to all the questions you ever asked during your drug experience???? I don't know what made you decide to question why you are living, so I'm not sure how else to answer your question. Did you find peace and feel that you need to go to the other side to re-experience that peace? If so, remember that we are here on this side for very important and compelling reasons. Leaving before the time that you were meant to is not a short cut to peace. In fact, most people believe that it will make a much longer journey of it.

I believe this part of our existence is extremely important to the other reality. We can't short cut this or we will miss something vital that we need to experience, and all will be delayed (or repeated.) that is my belief. We need to experience giving and receiving of love in THIS reality in hundreds of ways (maybe thousands.)

If you are depressed after your experience because of guilt or other reasons, you need to see a doctor or counselor ASAP. I say this with love and respect.

Blessings,
Lionheart

Esin, Firekeeper says what my reason is for being here and also that at eighty life is more respendant that at any time previous and I do not want to miss a day of it!
finality

Sorry for garbling. My first line should have been "fascinating and perplexing." Sheesh.

Namaste,
Lionheart

Hello..

I have been reading posts here for a while but I have never posted...primarily because I don't have the courage...hopeful I won't disappoint you too much...

You asked for "a" reason to go on living... There isn't just one. I believe that there is a purpose for everyone on this earth...I believe that one can change the world by just being a part of it. The lives that one touches in daily interactions are significant. You never know how profound your kindness is to others...

So, if you just want ONE reason, it is that you make a difference...you may not see it, and most likely you will never know the impact it has made on that other person... Live to share your joy, kindness, love and knowledge to those around you...

Everyday is a struggle for me, everyday, I need to recommit myself to myself, to my family, to my commitments and to my beliefs. Everyday I have to believe in ME!

I hope you can believe in yourself too...

Why go on living? Perhaps a billion people ask themselves that every day. You are in good company.

Here's a reason: while you have a body, no matter how messed up you think it is, or how messed up your psyche may feel, _you can still change your life_.

Here's another: for whatever it's worth to you, I'm psychic enough to have encountered spirits from the afterlife, and these encounters have proved to me, that _consciousness and awareness live on_, after the transition of death. If you choose to not go on living, you will not obliterate the pain affecting your awareness -- you just won't have a body anymore with which to change or self-heal.

Here's yet another: everything passes. Even lousy painful despairing states of mind, and physical pain. The pain or emptiness is not you, nor your soul.

Please reach out to more people and find help, Esin. The drug isn't you, and the drug experience isn't you.

I hope to see you return here many, many more times. Email me if you want to talk some more.

love and blessings,
lunarreikin

Hi Esin,

Why would I want to go on living? Because there is so much beauty and love in this world.

To feel the warm embrace of a friend or lover, to laugh at a stupid joke, to cry at a sad time.

To feel the wind on my face, to feel a crisp snowflake land on my cheek, to see the rain bring life to the land.

To watch a bird soar through the sky, to sense the gentleness of deer as it walks past, to hear the happy chatter of a squirrel.

There are many reasons to want to go on living. You know what they are for you. Take a good long look at them. Be honest with yourself. Embrace them, embrace your self.

With light and love,
Featherpoint

Esin,

It sounds like you are severely depressed, as I have been before. Reiki can help you with this...as can hope.

I will tell you from experience that whatever you're feeling right now, it will pass.

Life is full of emotions and we are meant to experience all kinds, not just the happy ones. Please take my advice and do lots of reiki and lots of soul searching. Try to look at your situation from an outsiders point of view. This board has helped me to vent on occasion about personal problems.

Please let us know if we can be of assistance. Can we send you reiki?

Love and light,

Jessica

Dear Esin,
We each have a purpose to fulfill. Often we go through dark places to fulfill our purpose. Often other people need what we learn in the dark places. I have been in some very dark places, and each time when I emerge, there is someone there waiting to hear what I have learned so THEY can heal. Your suffering that you feel today has a purpose . You will go on to help others. Death is not an ending to suffering, it is a change in form. We have a gift here of a body and an ability to progress spiritually. Don't waste the gift.
Loving hugs,
Feather

Wrote you a semilong e-mail if'n ya didn't get it let me know

Esin,

Having been suicidal not so long ago, I can promise you that the feelings you are having now will pass.

I personally was very frustrated with my depression and am still not certain why a relationship ending badly (and not a very long one at that) triggered such a very extreme emotional response, and am also still in the process of recovering.

Depression, like a mood altering drug, is basically chemical. The drug you have taken has altered the chemical pathways in your brain. That is the reason you are feeling like this.

The reasons to live are countless, from the taste of cherries to the feeling of a breeze or the smile of a person you care about.

The reason not to live is only one, the pain you are feeling now and the numbness and depressionthat comes with it.

It will pass.

I hope with all my heart that you are able to read these words.

If you would like a someone to talk to I am here, if you would like advice I shall be happy to give it.

I know that the Reiki and kind words sent by people in this cafe helped me enormously during my hardest times. I am sure they will be happy to send it your way.

Remember you have done nothing wrong by feeling like this. Even the greatest masters stumble sometimes, so don't beat yourself up.

Just look after yourself.

And listen to yourself. Often the voices which seem to be against us are just trying to tell us that we arn't happy and want changes in our lives to make the world easier.

Take care Esin

Love and light

Shanta

Dear Lionheart,

I agree with you that life is fascinating and complex. And I too have always had a burn,ng desire to learn more about everything.

My drug experience was a rare event indeed. I don't think I got any answers to my questions, but then I'm not really sure I wanted them. I suppose I needed to know what it felt like because I know a lot of people who have tried the experience. No, I wasn't looking for peace, maybe fulfillment but not peace.

Now I know. The drug is supposed to make you feel better but in fact it just amplified a problem I already had.

You said, "I believe this part of our existence is extremely important to the other reality." and I believe this too.

I've never avoided doctors and counselors anyway and am not ashamed to say I have already been through therapy to help me adjust to relationships.

Then again, I remain isolated in my problem, which will probably mean that if I never touch a mood-altering drug from now on, the pressing urgency of the question may never arise again, but neither will it go away.

Live long and prosper,

How ironic that this is the ending I choose for my messages.

Love,

Esin

Thank you Jessica. If you want to send me Reiki I would say yes.

Esin:)

Shanta, thank you so much for the heartfelt message. I'll keep your words in mind.

And I am still here:)

Esin

consider it sent...you'll be receiving today.

love and light,

keep smiling,

healingfeeling