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Roxyart's thread mentioning that Samhain being a time for endings has really struck a cord for me.

A relationship with a very close friend appears to have come to the end this weekend. It is absolutely breaking my heart; though it is probably healthier for all involved to go our seperate ways.
But such a big part of my life is now missing, this may take a long time to heal.

I'm trying to "learn the lesson" that our relationship was here to teach me and hope that he can do the same.

It saddens me that we didn't even get to properly say good bye to each other. I have tried to communicate how much I miss him, but he does not wish to speak.

Other things have happened at the weekend that signify major endings and changes in my life; these in themselves are hard to come to terms with. And now the one person in my life I could talk to about them is no longer here.

Sory for the rant, I just needed to get this off my chest.

Hoping for a brighter tomorrow,
Evie

Dear Eviemay,
Time will heal your wound and you will then be able to see the opportunity presented to both of you in the seperation of your relationship. It is too early for that now. Im sorry for your suffering, Eviemay. It is a good thing to feel your grief, however...burying it doesnt help you in the long run, so good for you for posting to get it off your chest.
When there is no one you can talk to, life will provide other opportunities for sharing, keep your eyes and heart open. Strangers have come into my life, sometimes just for a moment or a short while when there was no one else available. Every smile you see around you is not there to mock you but to start the process of healing your heart :)

peace & joy,
holobon

Thank you, Holobon, for your kind words.
Evie

Dearest Evie May,
Look also to the growth you have shown since you met this person. Look at the way you would have handled the situation in comparision to how your moving through this energy Now..
You are so beautiful. I hope your remembering that everything has a reason, a season or a liftime.
I promise you that if you felt this was your lifetime and it has not turned out to be so, that something much more rich and mature is coming your way.
Perhaps not today, but Soon..

I love you and and holding the space for your upliftment and clear Sight,

J

Thanks J for your wonderful message.

Just at the moment I feel further behind than I've ever been. All the work on self, the healing, the self growth, seems to have been in vain. It seemed to be a sticking plaster over wounds I thought had long gone and now lay open and exposed.
I just feel so horrible at the moment, and can't seem to make the shift to becoming more positive and happier again.
I also feel guilty that I've allowed one person to be such an important part of my life that us falling out leaves such a big whole. I have let myself down.

*sigh*
I need a good kick up the a*s to get outta this rut!!

Thank you so much again. :o)
love and light,
Evie