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After spending much time reading folks words and those in several different books, I find I still feel as if I'm moving two steps forward and three steps back. Perhaps, this has a little bit to do with the changes that finality has been sharing with us....or the questions &/or doubts that prosperity has been sharing. I'm not a great thinker, but I do want to always keep learning....even when sometimes, as Firekeeper has mentioned (concerning Reiki & healing) that there might be some pain involved. I can deal with pain....just feel buried under the same old patterns....ones I've felt I've worked with over & over, again. I'm also aware that the holiday season brings longing for those who've already passed over (even though, I know they're still with me)...I'm sorry...didn't mean for this to be a downer...cause you've all lifted me up with your words so many times. Thanks for letting me ramble.

Dear Ponderings,

There has been and is and always will be change. How boring life would be without it.

As we have discussed before in the Cafe' we are reading words and do not have the benefit of seeing someone's facial or body expressions. Also in most cases we have not had the benefit of meeting or knowing each individual who posts. Even hearing the words can be of benefit rather then just reading them. Of course some great writers can make words come to great visuals for us, but I wouldn't count on it on all of the many forums we all visit and read at.
So, one lesson learned is to take what we read with a grain of salt, digest it for awhile and then respond in kind if we feel inclined.

I would think most of us on the energy work path do feel we take 2 or 3 steps forward and 1 behind many times. There is always something to learn as we go along.

Sometimes we think we have worked on some issues and have cleared or healed them and this many times is not quite true. They will keep coming back until we truly learn the lessons for ourselves.
Like for myself I am once again learning my lessons to be more patient and be more centered. Another one is to take care of myself first. To be still. I have learned that it is very easy to falter while on my path especially when so many health issues keep dancing in my way. I gave in and gave them my power. I finally asked for help when I realized I could not be my own end all. I learned it is very freeing and very helpful to ask for another's help. I have always been the one helping others. See the karma there? If one gives help one should also ask for and receive help

Life is a roller-coaster so there will always be change.

Everyone does not have to be a great thinker, just a thinker, and to think before we speak. Angry or hurtful words/opinions only put more negativity out there and it will return in kind. And as we know, love and compassion will do the same. I choose the later.

All blessings, Donna

Otoharo!

Ponderings, you picked a good user name! I have been through what you describe it seems like year after year. I finally grasped that we heal in layers. We worked at some part of ourselves, heal that swipe our hands and feel that's done now. But it comes back. Not the same but another layer of the same thing. And for me they got harder and harder to heal. But I can not stand the alternative which is to do nothing! So I work.

finality

Dear Ponderings,

Don't be discouraged. You may feel you're not making progress at the time, but sooner or later, you'll look back and realize you have. It's not recognizable at the time.

It seems to me that likening progress to a straight line journey, as in steps forward and back, is not a good comparison. We progress in many aspects at one time, so we're all over the map in that respect. Slowly, they come together.

In other words, I'm sure you're doing fine.

Love,
Roxy

Hi Ponderings,

Namaste :)

There have been so many times where I have felt like you do now. Sometimes our journey through life is so rapid that every now and again we have to take time to step back and reflect upon it. I have always seen my Reiki journey as a bit like climbing a mountain; in the beginning I was speeding ahead just couldn't wait to get to the top! :) But now I seem to stumble and fall on the way up and every now and then I reach a plateau where I just want to stay a while and absorb the view if that makes any sense :)

I always find this time of year has mixed emotions too. We often feel that we must be happy just because it's christmas and it's an especially poignant time when we have lost loved ones.

Gentle Blessings
Helen

" There has been and is and always will be change. How boring life would be without it." Tears of joy here, sweet Donna...
thank you for all of your words....I'm truly honored. Thank you.

"But I can not stand the alternative which is to do nothing! So I work."

wow.....thank you, finality....my heart feels safer....

ahhhhh, Roxy, if I'm doing fine....it's thanks to such tender words from thee and others on this site....my fear has always been that of the matyr....the victim...and even when I've felt that I've won the battle.....certain words here, even...with gentle souls struggling with souls....even when they believe in the very basic fine things....meant to be....thank you...

Gentle blessings, indeed, sweet Helen...thank you, my love.
Isn't this why we come to such a place....together....to make it....thank you.

Dear ponderings,

I read your post only so far. Among other things that you shared what stuck out for me was a thing you mentioned, "I'm not a great thinker, but I do want to always keep learning..."

But it's not just because your were beating yourself up that i responded.

You are a great thinker already. Perhaps a bit unfocused and subject to emotional winds perhaps. But who isn't to varying degrees and concoctions ? That's something you can easily improve.

Namaste,

Michael

reikimerlot said on

>Dear Ponderings,
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>There has been and is and always will be change. How boring life would be without it.
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>As we have discussed before in the Cafe'......

...well put.

I think that anyone who believes in Universal Energy knows that change is inevitable. Without change we, our spirit the common world....None of this would grow.

Ponderings,

I think that you should not beat yourself up, you are worthy of everything you learn and acomplish. And you have helped me, personally, sooo much!!!!! All of your words are inspirering. and in response to your comparing yourself to others, in the past .. Firekeeper, finality celtic...dude(sorry cant remember name now). It takes all kinds to make this world and relm balance. You are a great thinker!!!! We just think differently than others!!!

love and light harmony

Oh, Michael, thank you, my love from the bottom of my heart for the laughter at 2:00am in the morning. Aie, laughter is healing, so I must be improving already.

HealingHands, Harmony.....thank you, my lovelies. You definitely honor me with your words.

I appreciate your blessings, Carole in Cairns. Thank you.

Ponderings,
You seem like such a kind, sweet person and I really enjoy reading your posts. Your words have such a warm feeling to them. I agree with the others and I don't think you should compare your growth to someone else's. Sometimes we are progressing more than we think we are and our bodies need time to adjust to the differences within us. I have felt like I've taken many steps back sometimes as well only to realize that it was then I made the most progess. I wish you happiness and peace on your journey.
Blessings,
Sika :)

Thank you for such loving words, Sika. I hope that I've stopped comparing myself to others, for I know there can be only one me. I've been working with dark side acceptance and it seems that I can't stop crying these last three days (sorry, Michael). I've realized that this might be just another way of releasing past patterns and my past way of living that I truly don't need anymore....and I remind myself, that this, too, will pass. I have no desire to return to my very old patterns of being a matyr or victim. You honor me with your words, sweet friend. Thank you.

Dear ponderings,

There are worse conditions to be in than crying. Like not being able to cry. That's worse. Crying should be a positive release. Empowering in the end to some degree or another. If you feel that you are caught in a crying loop, I would look for a sad evoking thought or feeling that you are holding onto, not letting go of. Sometimes we hold onto these things on intentionally. And dully bask in it's morose glow. Find it, thank it and let it go. Might take a few trys.

You'll know when you sent off the right one (or one's). The crying will be extra phlegmy and racking but you will feel really good afterward. When You walk you will look upward instead of down I believe.

Namaste,
michael

ponderings,

/*\ Namsate :-}}

- sounds as if you are working at clearing some olde stuff out

>:-}}

Reiki All Around,

All Blessings,

Firekeeper

Beautiful words, Michael.....from the heart....thank you so much. And I agree.....reveal, accept, release....rar!!!

Thank you, Firekeeper.

Good, wise, and loving words, Carole. Thank you for sharing.

Daniel is making music now in the dark & quiet of the morning ("Good hearted woman in love with a good timing man" Ha!)....all is good....and I am so blessed to have folks that care so much. Thank you for honoring me so.