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Otoharo!

Several years ago, we began doing this. I doubt that I posted anything about it. But it now comes to mind again. This paper consists of letters, cards, pictures, etc. of things in our past. the past no longer exists. Only ego hangs on to it and uses this type of paper at a way to keep the past. We went through all our paper stuffs, threw away old letters, cards, things. We however kept those items which carry a current love energy. For instance, cards from a friend or relative who continues to be a friend, and holds love for us in the now. As one person said, all they now have on hand are current love items. Only those who love us now get to stay.

In addition for me, are the names of people who were in various of my classes. I did not realize that each name is a pull on my energy now. So I am culling out all these enrollment lists, etc. I used to keep track of classes, which were very varied, in small journals of some sort. these are conventient for lots of things. So I cut out the pages not now relevant, and have a pile of useable little journals on hand. Each time I find something weighted with past, I clear it out and feel lighter immediately. The past is very weighty. And ego likes to label these things of the past to make them seem relevant.

I can feel some of you reading this, identifying with being cut out. But everyone still currently in my life stays. Only those belonging to the past are cut away. One person stands out in my awareness who does not now love me, but whom I love as much as I ever did, perhaps even more. So he stays. He belongs because of my feelings for him.

My next project will be culling through my snapshots. It have postponed this for years.

finality

finality,

/*\ Namaste :-}}

- yes, the press of impermanence

>:-}}

Reiki All Around,

All Blessings,

Firekeeper

lol. I'm going through a declutter of my own life at the moment as well. Still loads of stuff to 'get rid'of.
Most is going to charity shops though. Hopefully, it will all go to where its most needed.

I feel loads lighter. My baggage is getting lighter.

Nameste.

FIRSTLY, PLEASE EXCUSE THE CAPS:....I AM LOOSING MY VISION & THIS IS A WAY OF READING BACK MY WORDS...THANKS.
''DECLUTTER''...I AM TRYING TO DE-CLUTTER MY 'MIND'....
LONG STORY,..
I HAVE AN ILLNESS (FIBROMYALGIA..) A BAD CASE, PAIN 24/7...IT HAS STOLLEN MY LIFE, MY FRIENDS & SOME OF MY FAMILY.....I AM NOT THE 'ME' I WAS A FEW YEARS AGO....I HAVE HAD THIS ILLNESS FOR 25 YEARS, BUT THIS LAST 5 IT HAS GONE 'CRAZY'..(IT IS A LIFE LONG ILLNESS, NO CURE..)I AM ON PAIN MEDICATIONS & CORTISONE.... WHICH DULL IT DOWN..'PLEASE'..I DO NOT FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF, NEVER HAVE, LOOKED ON IT AS A CHALLENGE...

NOW THE DOUBLE WHAMMY, 'MACULAR DEGENERATION' IN BOTH EYES GOING 'TO FAST' FOR MY LIKING, (LIKE LOOKING THROUGH PLASTIC FILM..) AGAIN, I DO 'NOT' FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF...
I HAVE DONE EVERYTHING I CAN THINK OF TO ''''DE-CLUTTER MY BRAIN!!....& HAVE DONE A LOT TO HELP MYSELF...

BUT I HAVE LOST 'ME' WENDY...'SHE' IS NO LONGER THERE ANYMORE..
I LOVE REIKI,(I KNOW THIS CAN'T CURE ME..)IT SURE HAS BEEN A GREAT HELP,......

BUT I NEED TO KNOW PLEASE, HOW CAN I STOP THE ''''ANGER''' INSIDE ME???I HAVE DONE ALL THE GRIEVING,GOT OVER THE LOSS OF FRIENDS,(THROUGH REALIZING 'THEY WERE NOT REALLY FRIENDS' & HAD THEIR LIVES TO GET ON WITH..& THROUGH CLEANSING TEARS..) EVEN A SON THROUGH LACK OF UNDERSTANDING OF THIS ILLNESS...I HAVE EXCEPTED THE ILLNESS, & THE VISION LOSS.....BUT I CAN'T LET THE '''ANGER GO!!!....I AM JUST 'NOT' AN ADEQUATE 'PERSON' ANYMORE....I WOULD LOVE TO GO TO A RE- TREAT, BUT HAVE TO GET MY MEDICATIONS EVERY 2 WEEKS!!!!

MY MEMORY HAS GONE ,OUT OF THE WINDOW, (IF YOU SEE IT, PLEASE SEND IT BACK!LOL)
I LOVE MY HUSBAND BUT HE IS DRIVING ME MAD!, WON'T LET ME ''DO'' ANYTHING ARGHHH...I FEEL USELESS...I TELL HIM THIS, HE SAYS "BUT YOUR NOT"BLAH, BLAH, BLAH...BUT 'STILL CARRIES ON THE SAME WAY'!!....(HE'S A GOOD MAN,JUST NEEDS TO LET GO A BIT..) BUT HE '''WONT''

SORRY ABOUT ALL THIS,
IN A NUT SHELL, "I CAN'T GET OFF THE ROUND- A- BOUT,BUT I CAN'T GO FAST ENOUGH TO KEEP UP WITH THE WORLD!!!ALL ONE BIG SPIN!! BUT THIS 'ANGER'??!!!!I HAVE DONE DEEP MEDITATIONS & REIKI TO TRY & RID MYSELF OF IT...TO NO AVAIL....

PLEASE DO ''NOT'' TELL ME TO GO ON ANTI-DEPRESANTS! I AM NOT DEPRESSED.....
I DO NOT NEED TO SEE A SHRINK...(I SAY THAT, AS I CAN'T SPELL THE PROPER NAME FOR THEM..LOL,)

WHY WAS 'I GIVEN THIS 'WONDERFUL GIFT' OF REIKI'?..(I AM REILI 2)...I SO WANT TO HELP OTHERS MORE, & MYSELF, (WHICH IT HAS, (HELPED ME SO VERY MUCH,)...
SORRY ABOUT THE '''BOOK''....I COULD GO ON FOR EVER AS TO '''HOW REIKI HAS HELPED ME THROUGH '''ALL'''OF THIS...

BUT PLEASE, HOW DO I HELP MYSELF WITH THIS AWFUL, DEEP INSIDE OF ME '''ANGER'''???

LOVE TO YOU ALL,... I REMEMBER MANY OF YOU FROM WHEN I WAS HERE A FEW YEARS BACK....LOVE WENDY XXX (AUSTRALIA)

PLEASE PUT THIS ON THE BOARD,...I AM FINDIND ALL THE CHANGES HERE A BIT HARD, BUT I WILL GET THERE! XXX

wendy,

/*\ NAMASTE :-}}

- ANGER THAT IS CHRONIC IS A TOUGH ONE

- A PPLACE TO START, PERHAPS, IS USUI SENSEI'S ADVICE: JUST FOR TODAY, DO NOT ANGER

- IF ONE GRADUALLY FINE TUNES THIS A BIT ONE MAY ARRIVE AT: JUST FOR THE MOMENT, DO NOT ANGER

>:-}}

REIKI ALL AROUND,

ALL BLESSINGS,

FIREKEEPER

HI WENDY,

NAMASTE :)

DO YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE ANGRY AT? I KNOW THAT PROBABLY SOUNDS CRAZY BECAUSE YOU HAVE A LOT TO DEAL WITH, BUT SOMETIMES WE CAN BE ANGRY WITOUT ACTUALLY KNOWING EXACTLY WHAT/WHO WE ARE ANGRY AT. IF WE CAN IDENTIFY THE ROOT THEN SOMETIMES WE CAN SET ABOUT DEALING WITH IT.

WOULD YOU CONSIDER COUNSELLING OR HYPNOTHERAPY TO HELP YOU MANAGE YOUR FEELINGS OF ANGER?

GENTLE BLESSINGS
HELEN

Otoharo!

Wendy, so good to hear from you. I have missed you! Sorry about your difficulty right now. Wish I could help. But I do enjoy your posts.

I have my soul mate who is able to be reiki with more clarity than I can and I can get weekly help from her for all my reiki needs. I had a year or so of healing anger. It is a tuff one. but it does heal. I had difficulty allowing myself to feel this anger. One has to feel an emotion before it can heal. So you are ahead of the game by realizing your anger.

finality

g'day there all my friends,
SORRY I HAVEN'T REPLIED BEFORE BUT COULDN'T GET ON LINE AT ''ALL'' YESTERDAY...EXPECT A TIME ZONE 'THINGY' WITH ME BEING IN AUSTRALIA...THINK MOST OF YOU ARE IN BED WHEN I AM UP! & I AM A DAY AHEAD OF YOU!!!

DEAR FIRE KEEPER...A VERY WISE POST..YOU ALWAYS ''GET IT''
"JUST FOR TO DAY I WILL NOT ANGER"..& TAKE IT FROM THERE...

DEAR RAINBOW-HELEN...I THINK THE ANGER IS ABOUT LOSING ALL OF '''ME'''....I HAVE TO LEARN TO BE ANOTHER PERSON NOW WITH ALL MY LIMITATIONS, (VERY FRUSTATING)...BUT ANOTHER CHALLENGE AYE?...ALSO I AM ANGRY AT ALL THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO CLAIMED TO LOVE ME,..BUT WHEN I CAN'T DO THE FRIENDS OR FAMILY MEETING ETC...AFTER A WHILE THEY STOP 'ASKING', (THIS HURTS..) I GET TIRED OF TELLING THEM WHY!!! & SEEING THE LOOK ON THEIR FACES OF DISBELIEF OF JUST HOW ILL I AM, AS WITH ''FIBROMYALGIA' YOU LOOK OK...SO I AM NO LONGER INCLUDED 'IN ANYTHING', OK, I COULDN'T GO, BUT I WOULD LIKE TO BE AT LEAST ASKED....

PEOPLE THAT DON'T KNOW WHAT 'FIBROMYALGIA' IS COULD 'GOOGLE' IT, AS THERE SEEMS TO BE GETTING MORE & MORE OF IT, MORE SO IN THE USA? ...MINE IS A VERY BAD CASE...BUT I MUST SAY AGAIN "I DO NOT FEEL SORRY FOR ME"....JUST ANGRY AT 'ALL' I HAVE LOST & 'STILL LOSING'..(& NOW MY VISION,) ALL HARD TO COPE WITH,.....& IT LEADS TO A ''''VERY LONELY LIFE''' BUT I HAVE & ALWAYS WILL HAVE 'REIKI'XXX

DEAR FINALITY--YES I '''FEEL''' ALL THE ANGER, IN THE PIT OF MY STOMACH NEARLY ALL DAY...(I EXPECT YOU WOULD KNOW THAT HORRIBLE FEELING.. AFTER BEING IN THAT PLACE.)

IT'S A DOUBLE WHAMMY REALLY, AS MY HUSBAND ALSO GETS VERY 'ANGRY' WHEN 'I' GET REALLY ILL...(THAT DOESN'T HELP AT ALL!!)..I HAVE SPOKEN TO HIM ABOUT THIS, BUT TO NO AVAIL...
SO I CARRY 'GUILT' FOR BEING THIS WAY, SEEING HOW UPSET HE GETS...

I AM ''''NOT''' ALOUD TO RELEASE MY ANGER .VERBALY'...I THINK YOU ALL KNOW WHAT I MEAN BUT THAT..%##@**&%!!!!!
OR SHOUT,(I DO AT TIMES, BUT THIS UPSETS KEN..) AS WE LIVE IN A RETIREMENT VILLAGE & ALL 'VERY CLOSE TO GETHER HOMES'!!!!....DOESN'T WORRY ME, BUT IT DOES KEN!!

PLEASE HOW CAN REIKI HELP ME WITH THIS PROBLEM, (IT DOES HELP IN MEDITATION..)..BUT I CAN'T DO THAT ALL DAY...
WHO, & HOW, DO I ASK REIKI FOR THE WORDS I NEED TO HELP ME THROUGH THIS....
I BE REIKI A LOT,IT HAS HELPED IN TELLING ME TO ENJOY THE SMALLER THINGS IN LIFE,NATURES WONDERS, WHICH BUSY HEALTHY PEOPLE MISS OUT ON, SO VERY MUCH OF ALL THIS...

I AM 'DRIBBLING' ON NOW SORRY!! SO I WILL END...
LOVE YOU ALL, & THANKS FOR YOUR ADVICE..WENDYOZ XXX (AKA WENDY)

OTOHARO!

I HEAR YOU. IT IS NIGHT HERE AND I NOTICED YOU HAVE COME ON JUST NOW. IT IS HARD TO EXPLAIN WHAT BEING REIKI IS LIKE. IT DOES FEEL LIKE BEING IN THE SPACE OF MEDITATION. I EXPERIMENTED AND IT SEEMS LIKE I CAN BE IN A MEDITATIVE STATE ALL DAY. WHILE IN IT, REIKI IS JUST A STEP AWAY. PERHAPS, IT IS THE FACT THAT I AM IN MUSIC ALL DAY. I AM EITHER COMPOSING OR PLAYING THINGS THAT ARE ALREADY COMPOSED. ANY CREATIVE ACT IS LIKELY AS EFFECTIVE AS COMPOSING OR PLAYING MUSIC IS. LIVING ALONE MAY BE THE DECIDING FACTOR. NO ONE TO INTERFERE, NO ONE TO ATTEND TO. TO LIMIT THE TIME MY FRIEND SPENDS ON THE PHONE LINE, I WRITE HER A LETTER AND MAIL IT EACH MORNING. SHE HAS DISCOVERED THAT THE ENERGY OF TELEPHONE LINE HARMS HER. IT LIKELY HARMS ANY LIGHT WORKER WHO IS IN THE ENERGY OF THE NEW WORLD. ALSO THE ENERGY OF THE EARTH.

FINALITY

THANKS FINALITY,
YOUR RIGHT,LIVING ALONE MUST HELP SEE YOU THROUGH CLEARER..
WHEN ONE HAS ANOTHER SOUL TO WATCH OVER IT DOES MAKE IT HARDER....

I CAN'T PRESS MY ENERGY ETC. ONTO HIM,(ALTHOUGH DH IS ALSO REIKI #2)..BUT NOT VERY ACTIVE IN REIKI....

I REALLY WISH I COULD 'RETREAT',BUT THAT IS JUST '''NOT''' AN OPTION FOR ME.....

I DO SO HOPE REIKI & ALL MY GUIDES, WILL HELP ME THROUGH...
I AM A VERY POSITIVE PERSON, & BELIEVE IN , WHAT WILL BE WILL BE, & IT ALL HAS A REASON...
LOVE TO YOU, NOW GO TO BED & GET YOUR BEAUTY SLEEP XXX
WENDY OZ