Wendy,
I made a post to this board on 9/12/2003 titled "Despair". As a result of that post, you and I exchanged private e-mails. Do you remember? Your response to my post, followed by the e-mail touched me in a very special and positive way. And what you said to me was RIGHT. These were your words to me....
"I too have found myself in the similar space that you are. It is like a total upheaval of all that we believe in, is it not? "..."These are confusing and exhausting times, but the one thing I believe is that SOMETHING is happening here. I see the same thing in so many deeply spiritual and beautiful people....their lives coming apart, piece by piece, almost as if they must be torn down and then rebuilt. And that is the key, I am sure.....this is happening to release all of the old ways, the old energies that no longer serve us (you, me, everyone) and make room for the new energies - the love, the light, the healing, the abundance, the compassion and healing." ..."...just wait and see. The most beautiful moment will come soon, when you will be able to look back and see where you have come from and realize all the forces that have moved you to where you are, and WHY!"
Your words were prophetic. I can already look back and see the forces which were and are working in my own life. My despair is gone (even in spite of recently getting fired from my job...a first for me...) And now I am filled with the faith that there really is something wonderful just around the corner. I can FEEL it.....
Please know these words are true for you also. Spirit is preparing a bright, wonderful, abundantly love-filled life for you and those you love. Absorb the Reiki which is being sent to you, and allow it to work miracles in your heart and life.
You are NEVER alone. You are DEEPLY loved.
Love, prayers, and Reiki on the way...
Shannon