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I could use some emotional support from any who have a few minutes to send reiki. There are many problems in my family between my Mom, Dad, and sister. I was told, point blank, yesterday, that all the problems began when I was born. This is not the first time I have been told this from my Dad but this time I have more knowledge of certain events from my infancy and can see why this would be said.

I have always been a good daughter and sister, striving for peace in the family but one cannot turn back time or take back a life. My family has to heal on it's own, with out me. I know that I am not to blame due to my birth and that they have to deal with their own baggage but I am hurt very deeply.

I am in a very low place and just need some extra energy to get through.

Thank you, with love,
Tracey

Hey Tracy chin up
i'm sat here nursing my hand so i'll send some reiki at once. i'll also ask my angels to surround you with there loving light

kindest of blessings
lea

Thank you, Lea.
T

Tracey,

please know that my thoughts are with you.

'Hurts' are those small nudges that push us towards finding the 'truth' and 'spread love'.

Loving energy is being sent your way.

with love and peace,
Harsh

Hi Tracey,

I can understand how hurt you must be feeling and you are right, you are not to blame.

I know that my marriage and life have changed irrevocably since my third(unplanned) child was born. However I would not change a thing, I know he was meant to be, I adore him and I know that he has brought lessons for us as a family and highlighted issues that were there before he came along. Yes we have to work harder at it all now, but I honour and cherish his presence in our lives rather than resent him.

I hope that your family, particularly your dad, can reach a point where they see that sometimes it is easier to try to deal out blame than to face up to umcomfortable realities about ourselves and our lives.

I am sending you Reiki for as long as you need it.

Reiki Hugs and Blessings
Helen

You said, "I know that I am not to blame due to my birth and that they have to deal with their own baggage but I am hurt very deeply."

Knowing it in your head is good. It's going to be much harder to "hear" it in your heart, isn't it? It hurts to have your own parent connect your birth with the general problems of your family. Ouch.

My third child was unplanned, unexpected, etc. We had two teens (my stepkids) who were driving us crazy because they wanted to live with their mother, an 8 year old who would today be called "ADD-HD-LD", etc., and a 2 year old toddling, when baby number three came along. She was the easiest baby I ever saw. When she was a youngster, she was often quiet and moody, but she was so clever and funny when she wanted to be. She made me laugh more than all the others put together.

When she was old enough to hear such things, she did know that her arrival was unplanned, but we never told her she was an accident, a mistake or a problem. We told her she was a surprise that we didn't know we wanted until we got it. Those are the best kind. We have always told her that and I think she knows she's loved as much as the others.

My first baby was unplanned, too.....he started the whole marriage off by being born 7 mos. after the official ceremony, tee hee. We never blamed him for marital problems though. How ridiculous. WE were responsible for our lives and how we have lived them, not him. What a rotten trip to lay on someone.

Lionheart

Thank you Lionheart and all the other Dear Ones that have helped. I am working thru this and can feel the love coming my way from all of you. Lionheart your children are very lucky to have you.

Unfortunately this is not a new situation for me. Thanks to MedicineBear I had worked thru much of my feelings of abandonement. I was suicidal for most of 30 years due to all this but when I found Reiki (or it found me) 6 years ago I was healed from that and put on my present path. However, tests are often put in front of us for a reason.

In spite of the feelings of my family I have tried to be supportive of them and be my own person. Lead by example.
My Dad is now a Reiki Practitioner but lacks tact. It is funny that four people in a room can have very different perceptions of the same events.

Thank you again for your kind words and reiki sent. Time to pull up the boot straps and move on. You are all precious!

Love and light,
Tracey