Dear members of the Reiki Cafe message board
It may sound as nothing to you, since you're probably older than me (21) and are probably dealing more swiftly with the kind of trouble I'm in.
This is the second time in my life I've lost a friend of mine, by pure clumsiness. I hope she will forgive me, but I am unsure. I can't help myself, my feelings.
I lack patience and am scared of having to deal with falling in love again. I have even had thoughts bordering to suicide. I am depressed.
I do Reiki II. I feel no meaning in life or in love. Loneliness is the last thing I want.
If you are willing to help me, help me get my strength back.
If only I could be her friend. Maybe I am blinded by love, I really love her, but I can not see that her boyfriend is right for her; By my impression he does not listen to her and they are having trouble being intimate.
I love her and all I want to do is help her, but she is unwilling to recieve, unwilling to give - how could she ever be my friend? Maybe she never was.
In one way she is also denying my feelings, the very core of my experience.
Btw. her mom's into Reiki as well, how odd.
I long to end a message with a L&L, but my heart is black and the last thing I want to do is lying. Oh, how I long for being a true healer. If only I could help - her.
Send me Reiki!
Daniel, Skövde, Sweden
