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In the last fifteen days, I have been experiencing a "relapse" of sorts. It's to do with my ex and the situation that developed between us over the years(or should I say lifetimes!). You think you 've put something behind you once and for all but then one day it reemerges in your life. And you realise it still hurts like hell. And a lot of existential/spiritual questions arise...

I understand that I never forgave him completely. It would have been the spiritually correct thing to do but I didn't have the strength to do it. Instead I moved on or at least thought I had. Right now, I feel extremely vulnerable again. Obviously something happened to trigger it. It's so strong that I took it all out on my mum yesterday. I feel so bad about that.

I haven't been able to give myself Reiki properly(I mean mindfully etc) since the "relapse". That's why I 'm posting this message in the hope someone will see it and be able to give me what I cannot give to myself right now.

Thank you in advance

Blessings,
Whatever

Dear Whatever,
Forgiveness of ourselves is important. Feeling vunerable is when we can be most powerful. I sent you Reiki and wondered if you felt supported at all in this as lower back issues were present unless I was projecting my own issues.
Peace,
Prosperity

Thank you Prosperity, much appreciated.

You are right about the support issue, I 've often felt people don't understand this situation( I don't blame them, some aspects are out of this world). So I 've stopped talking about it...I feel so alone in that respect...

Since the day I posted this healing request, there's been some progress, I 've actually started forgiving him. Today, it was challenging again but overall, I can sense a shift taking place.

Thanks again

Blessings,
Whatever

It's happening again...those feelings are coming up again...I just don't know how much longer I can take this- it's totally exhausting. :-(

Blessings,
Whatever