It seems as if misfortune has been pursuing me constantly since 2006; PROFESSIONALLY, FINANCIALLY, PERSONALLY . My memory and concentration has slackened, negatively affecting my performance at work and studies. Once a brilliant writer/speech maker, not only do I suffer from multiple creative blocks, but my oral communication skills have become too poor.
I feel constantly fatigued; seem to have lost my vigour and vitality.
I try really hard to quiet my mind, listen to music, think of pleasant things, but it doesn't work. Even if I can get a grateful few minutes of peace I inevitably think of something that upsets me and my mind keeps going on it and will not let go. This affects my work too, I can never never focus on it.
I also feel really anxious all of the time, but it's more than that. I just feel really afraid constantly and am jumpy and worried and paranoid. I feel this way all of the time.
I am nursing my third heartbreak. I feel completely shattered. I FEEL AS IF I WILL NEVER FIND TRUE LOVE AGAIN. I am trying my best and getting involved in work as much as possible.
However, it is getting increasingly difficult for me to rehabilitate myself. I AM SIMPLY TOO FIXATED WITH THE FAILED RELATIONSHIP. My professional life has taken a hard hit due to my personal problems and the stage has come wherein as much hard I work, I fail to win the respect of my boss and colleagues. The negativity ALL AROUND is too stifling. I am in the process of losing track of my promising career in my organization.
My self -esteem is at its lowest. I am too confused, demotivated and lost. My mind has become too foggy. I feel suffocated due to the amount of guilt and self-blame that I seem to carry within me. I AM LOSING MY MIND AND A SENSE OF CONTROL OVER MY LIFE. Please help....I want to experience a sense of mental peace and composure and loving compassion in my heart, something which I have not experienced in a long, long time. I need mental and emotional strength to face life squarely and mental clarity. I WOULD LOVE TO INCORPORATE THE LESSONS LEARNT FROM MY FAILED RELATIONSHIP IN MY LIFE AND RELEASE MYSELF FROM THE PAIN THAT STILL BINDS AND STUNTS MY PROGRESS. I WOULD LOVE TO ATTRACT TRUE LOVE IN MY LIFE, ONE WHICH WOULD SET ME FREE FROM MY INHERENT NEGATIVITY.
I have been in too much pain for too long; this has made me bitter and frustrated, which I don't like in myself. I want to experience genuine happiness, contentment in my life and compassion for others.
